MUSE LIFE: Trusting Intuition

You hear it’s whispers.  You hear whispering about it.  Like an unseen force that you dare not speak about.  Let's call it a gut feeling.  You’re thinking about that friend and your phone rings.  You’re down on your knees from a difficult situation and you’re drawn to an uplifting message that seemed designed for you. Meant for you...

This is about learning to trust your gut.  Your Intuition.  A woman's superpower.  We all have it.  

The question is whether you’re listening or not.  

Whether you’re willing to acknowledge your power and own it.  

To trust it and be guided by it.  

All photos by Danielle Dragone in Dumbarton Oaks, Washington D.C.

All photos by Danielle Dragone in Dumbarton Oaks, Washington D.C.

2012

I was newly married.  My husband & I wanted to save money.  We were considering moving to a new apartment.  We found a place not far from where we were living with more space.  Not that nice, with a backyard, a garage, & lots of storage space.  Not THAT nice.  The rent price was right.  But I was torn.  I was laying in bed one night thinking about what to do.  Praying, "what should I do? Should I move there? Should I stay? Should I go somewhere else?" I heard a voice--"Do NOT move there." LOUD.  My response, “I won’t find a cheaper deal for the space I need.  I’m going to move.” I’ve never heard a more clear and definitive answer to my prayer.  Or so I thought.  I remember many other times hearing a voice out of my despair, but choosing another path.  One that I thought made sense.  This apartment search was no different.  It made logical sense to move and save the money.  That move was THE worst decision.  

Two days after moving in, Superstorm Sandy rolled through.  I watched the water roll in, surge down the street, spilling into the driveways as it came closer.  I watched the water fill my basement where I was using all that storage to store all my belongings in boxes.  Thank goodness they were all still in boxes.  I was able to save most of my valuables before there was 4 feet of water in my basement.  I watched the water rise and rise out on the street until it met the windows of my car.  I watched her alarm go off, signaling her distress until it stopped.  And I realized she was probably not coming back.  

My old apartment a few blocks away was hardly impacted.  The difference in rent would now be paid in the form of a new car payment.  I had paid off my former car, but after she was towed away, we bought a new car.  We were no longer saving money.  The next two years were anxiety riddled as we lived below someone who simply didn’t like us and made it her point to illustrate this at every turn.  

Photo by Danielle Dragone

2017

Now I live in an amazing apartment.  It’s much smaller & I pay more in rent, but it’s beautiful and peaceful.  When I saw it, it felt right. It felt right in my body.  Like my body knew that this was a good fit.  My mind can’t know.  My mind is logical and rational.  Those are important tools, but the wisdom in our bodies knows and is aching to be heard. 

I don’t regret my decision to ignore my intuition in the moment when it was screaming at me to listen.  I learned so clearly to listen and honor my inner voice.  I learned that it was not speaking nonsense to me.  It was speaking the truth, guiding me.  I have to listen.  I have to trust.  And then I have to act.  

I know my intuition whispers to me everyday.  I know that I do better at listening to it on some days versus others.  Some days there is too much noise to hear.  You have to get quiet to know the power behind it.  It’s a muscle that needs to be worked, built.  The more you choose your intuition, the clearer it becomes.

Photo by Danielle Dragone
When I saw it, it felt right. It felt right in my body.  Like my body knew that this was a good fit.  My mind can’t know.  My mind is logical and rational.  Those are important tools, but the wisdom in our bodies knows and is aching to be heard. 
— Anna Owusu